Wednesday, June 3, 2015

prayer 2.5.15

i feel so grateful Always For AB’s Leading, Nourishing, Sustenance In Spirit, Truth, Mercy.  these few days we continue in heat of drought, desertlike dryness, every morning awaken to bright glaring orange globe blaring across horizon.  i feel oppression of windless hot cloudless days that deplete Moisture, LIFE.  depriving opportunity for planting from shortage of water.  we continue to be rainless in these parts, even weeds are not growing but receding!  this is indeed rare occasion in normally wet rainy season inundated with downpours.  i feel we habituate with cycles in seasons dwelling in one place.  when climate is amiss, our bodies feel disrupted, jilted, as does our mind.

witness to so great abnormality out of ordinary, in environ, in peoples, on earth, gives thought to fragility of our dependence.  even with most modern infrastructure is no security.  ruin is around every corner ready to pounce and destroy.  my mind feels tired from ranting of thomas payne (paine), reading his spewing in age of reason harkens to thomas of little faith.  i feel sad reading his diatribe of disbelief, galvanized in faulty reasoning, to need absolute proof for TRUTH.  does he not realize that if he had such proof as he felt is his need, he would end up without room for freedom of choice?  maybe he only desired to be completely convinced and was crying out for such persuasion.

i feel if we but open our hearts to listen, we will certainly hear Voice Of Truth Sounding Very Clearly.  doubt, fear, hate, are always based on our own choice.  we can always choose differently, rightly, that saves from such perplexities, suffering, agony, self imposed.  we are Given Reason for a cause, that we may Know Truth AS IS, Exactly, Accurately.  i am not sure basis for payne’s deviation, departure, complete divorce from Truth, i can however feel his painful struggle and desire Truth for him that Brings Comfort In Reconciliation With LIFE GIVER.  hatred is always a choice.  LOVE is the other choice.  we get to choose which one as a response to LIFE AS IS.  in LOVE is health, well being, in hate is dis-ease, fear.

shows how Great AB’s Unrestrained LOVE, to allow fulmination in complete denial of Truth, in the end  to Comfort such wretchedness.  something can be good or bad as we choose to make it, however Truth Is Truth, Unchanging, otherwise we will be completely lost without Point Of Reference.  AB Marks Central Core of everything, regardless of our own perspective.  there is the Unequivocal, otherwise, what is the point?  AB Is That Foundation of all things for measuring our truths or falsehood, Changeless, Immutable, Eternal AS IS.

to dispute Fact is insanity, denying What Is foolishness, when all is Revealed Complete In Unrestrained LOVE, Mercy, Unceasingly generation upon generation.  when we think of Origin, there is but One Answer In Truth.  we may have our different theories but Reality AS IS Simply IS, no matter our silly arguments for or against it.  Existence In Authenticity does not change based on our assumptions, it is only Present For us to know, if we choose genuinely to know what is True.  we know when something touches our heart, it is like solomon’s words about appropriate fitness, meeting, resonance, suitability.  

payne seems in great pain of incongruence, creature out of sync with Creator, not knowing Reality AS IS.  i felt pain reading his words struggling against Truth.  i suppose that is his journey to Truth.  ultimately, we all come to know AS IS sooner, later, or in the end.  pray that we are reconciled with Reality that we no longer flounder but may find REST because AB is not a fighter, opposer, but Always Covers In Unrestrained Mercy And LOVE.  Gentle Meekness In Awesome Humility, Water-like, Soft, Tender, Kind, but Strong In Faithful Devotion.  that is why Truth may be our Confidence, Reliance, Dependence, because it is Timeless, Constant, Consistent, Permanent.


of many books, endless in the making, ranting thoughts, some useful, some useless.  i pray my time will be spent in usefulness for i choose not to squander nor waste precious time we have in present, to live in AB’s Will and not my own.  i find Rest, Peace Surpassing all understanding in AB’s Constancy, Provisions, Defense, Protection, no matter what swirls.  Unto Day Of Restoration, we may stand always in AB’s Ceaseless Mercy, Unrestrained LOVE, Comfort, Sustained In LIFE Giver Eternal AMN.

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