Tuesday, June 2, 2015

prayer 1.28.15

AB SMYM YDH For LIFE, Mercy, Preservation, Salvation, seeing our tendency to corruption, decay, destruction.  life in rebellion is certainly a struggle, generation after generation, age after age.  we have not a Way out except in surrender to Forgiveness, Pardon, At-one-ment, Reconciliation.  dying in our own sickness, confused madness, infestation of dis-ease, we feel the worms eating us alive from inside out.  created to live perpetually, happily, this is a miserable way we are all in.  gloomy, cold, grey, isolated, unpleasant, if not dotted with momentary joys, we are but extinguished!

Mercy reverberates in birds songs, verdant green of the forest, LIFE, Gift Of AB to each, as well as death, REST from evil unto Day Of Reunion, Gathering, Rewarding or rather Accounting.  a Consummation of all things, a Deciding, Clarification of our decision, to Belong To LIFE or not.  little peace that we may have in corners of existence.  a rolled up tatami, folded coverings, stacked cushions, clean floor, books lined up in a shelf, but dust continues to accumulate, disorder rampant, swirling gossips, accusations of all kinds.  

yet every where we look and go, we see attempts of order in chaos.  bundles of sorted color pencils, game pieces in place, paint cans standing in rows, towels hung in columns, fences rolled up.  making effort to be clean, functional, orderly.  gardens trimmed, weeded, fruit trees tended, grasses cut back, lawns racked, driveways made even.  AB creates laws for the living, we make up human laws of relation because we are lawless, contentious, covetous.  AB’s laws are universal, allowing everything in creation to function impartially, our laws arbitrary, inconsistent, driven by selfish interests, oppressive.

AB’s laws control motion of everything, ours compel behavior, coerce compliance, otherwise we face retaliation, intimidation, threat, loss.  few are the human laws that are actually fair, just, merciful.  if they are, enforcement is as dismal, weak, inconsistent as the lawmakers.  at first may begin from good intention, in time is distortion, perversion, adulteration.  nothing stays Pure because tendency is debasement.  if we are not constant in imbibing LIFE Of TRUTH, we succumb in turpitude, depravity, lechery.

the true fight is Upward, Raised Constantly In AB’s Uplifting To Belong To Right.  this a commitment, devotion, Preserved Only In AB’s Goodness, Faithfulness, lest we fail in our sybaritic dissolution.  disconnected from LIFE Source, wanton, cruel, willful, shameful, lacking wisdom in our old age, out of control, dishonorable, ignominious.  the battle against tendencies, liability, habits, orientation, gravity, biases.  it is war against falsehood, of ourselves, six inches between our ears, or rather as the ancients call it battle for the hearts.  

Who Wins us lies our destiny.  rather, our surrender to Good, or bad, a choice we make, we determine our future, destiny, eternity.  we choose Good, LIFE, will consist eternity unto such.  we choose the opposing, will be eternity unto such.  we are already in decay, living an inferior existence, the Call Is Upward, to Rise Above, Surpassing all things earthly, worldly, selfish, to Become ONE With LIFE GIVER.  what is our choice?

i cannot imagine we would continue to choose consciously to continue living this rotten, decomposing, sorry life shamefaced.  some do.  i cannot understand the insanity of such a choice.  perhaps they are still deceived to think otherwise, that the bad is Good when it is not.  clinging to death as if it were LIFE as it is killing us.  i suppose pride is hard to break.  we’d rather die than to admit we were wrong.  Humility is a difficult thing for the prideful.  how does one come down from such high self-conception to accept our true lowly condition?  

unless AB Breaks this delusion, there can be no Hope.  this shattering is painful but necessary, so that we may see and be Truthfully What we Are.  some are harder to crack than others.  the more prideful, the more obstinate.  like pharaoh of old, even unto complete annihilation is mulish denial of Truth In The Face.  how foolish this pigheaded willfulness, contrary to Reason, but we practice this daily to our detriment.  choosing in stubborn perversity, intractable, rigid, narrow, tending toward destruction, choosing death instead of LIFE.  how few indeed choose LIFE when it is Freely Offered, Gifted To all.

how sad our condition and choices, Given So Much, Everything For Good, turned into sourness, badness, depravity.  who among us are willing to listen, to hear, to obey AB’s Word Of LIFE, to be Saved?  will no more heed?  are we all given to vice?  committed to falsehood, deception, disintegration?  are we not to choose instead to be children called by AB to come HOME?  as cs lewis writes, the bathrooms are all made ready, towels put out, fresh clean clothes airing in cupboards, waiting for each one.  though we fall, AB picks us up Always, Comforting to Encourage us along the Way, Carrying us when we are unable to walk, Guiding, Leading Towards The LIGHT Of Truth, to wash and bathe children battered, dirty, tattered in battles of LIFE.

Victory, Approval, Assurance Is Always Given us.  it is up to us to receive, accept AB’s Proposal.  it is always up to us to choose which side we are on.  AB Provides Gift Of Decision, Making Room For our Choice, Freely Accepting whatever it is we choose without interference because AB LOVES.  True LOVE never compels against one’s will.  it Draws, Encourages, Leads, if we will choose to follow LIFE Source, AB SMYM, Parent Most High.  this is our true Belonging, rightful position, Home.  the other choice leads but to death, misery, extinction.  badness cannot be, except that it continues to steal from LIFE, Good, to even continue to exist, parasitic.  


one Day soon, Account, Record, History will be Called Up, Reconciled, everything put Right, In Order.  the Good remains because it is Valuable, Useful, Serviceable, the bad delineated, exposed, recognized, dealt with.  Due Justice Administered, Executed, Accomplished, Finished, Done.  with fulness of knowledge of Good and evil, i doubt any would wish to go this way again.  if they do, they know full well how it will end.  no one is to blame but themselves for their choice, to face immediate natural consequence, and none will question the Righteous Execution of the result of such a choice, now that we have seen everything exposed, Revealed AS IS.

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