prayer 7.28.15

our bodies and all things physical are tools Supported By Being.  the way we use our bodies, physical things reflects an inward devotion, intent, motive, will.  this is where we may choose how we operate any thing, how we treat any thing or any one, how we interact and respond to material, manifest substance.  ultimately it is heart expression we are dealing with, belonging to respect or violation of Rightfulness, Justice, Mercy, Good, Truth, Peace, LOVE Unrestrained.

sun has arisen, cicadas sing among trees of forest signaling warmth.  we were inundated by rains day before, humidity fluctuate with moisture in atmosphere embracing earth.  we get to live here in ABa’s Land.  some choose Peace, others violence.  surrounded by nature, living in accord with LIFE in healthfulness is Beneficial, extricated from adulteration.  i received letter from california child support enforcement agency asking information for heywood’s whereabouts.  we do not know since he is not communicating with us.

instances like these remind how sick we have become as society, fathers abandoning families, evading necessary support to run away in shameless disregard.  refusal to support legitimate family is out of control, enforcement impotent, thus leaving families in lurch endangered by riotous, unbridled lawlessness.  i feel grateful ABa Is Near Upholding Goodness Consistent.  we live simply, lack in nothing Good, ABa Supplying all our needs physical, emotional, mental, spiritual.

we got into this mess by confusion, seduction, drawn aside from Rightfulness into vice, wrongdoing, corruption.  in this scenario, no one gains, every one is used to satisfy insatiable appetite, succumbing to addiction inextricable.  on the side of the abused, ABa Is Near to Deliver, Defend, Protect.  the abusers will be convicted one Way or another.  depraved dissipation attempts adulteration of Fact Changeless, they may obscure Evidence, eliminate Witness, pervert Trial but ABa’s Judgment is Clear, unaffected by dissolution of debauchery, transgression, crime.

i feel grateful for Justice, Reward Consequential.  we may not ever receive human justice but ABa’s Truth Stands, Compensation is Sure.  seek thus not any thing from the world but from Eternal Faithfulness Of LIFE GIVER Justifying all things, Making Right every situation, Restoring Good in Ceaseless Mercy AMeN.

prayer 6.24.15

i feel grateful for ABa’s Provisions, Preempting our needs before we arrive, Preparations Made Ready In Abundance, Surpassing expectations.  Support Of LIFE Encircle In Comfort Peaceful, Settling children Embraced In Faithfulness.  to possess Reliance Of Trust Resolved In Constant Assurance Accords Balance, Poise, Equanimity, Fearless in any situation knowing ABa Is Defender Vindicator, Able to Deliver in Will Of LIFE Complete.

our white 98 chevy blazer will not start, fuel pressure was low two months ago and we have had difficult starts with the car since we got it last year.  battery has been changed, gift of pam our neighbor when we lost all our support and alimony over a year ago.  ABa Provides in so many ways by so many means.  this past year is witnessing Deliverance Constant Supplying all our needs, Restoring Confidence in Intimate Support.  i am able to have three jobs, two iffy, one steady enough to cover our minuscule expenses in simple living.

ABa’s Support Encompasses aspects unknown before but now familiar.  we are able to get off temporary assistance for needy families, qualifying us for more help with car repair.  i feel grateful for this situation ABa Afforded, Prepared, Covering all costs for fuel pump replacement on this old car.  two months ago, i had rejected this need, postponing possibility that is now our Reality.  i feel grateful we were not stuck some where but the car gradually stopped working, died at home.  it will need a tow, which is also Covered while we are in transition.  i feel grateful for Collective Support meeting basic needs these past few months.

ABa Shifting us Always to Dependence On LIFE GIVER, Truth, True Security.  Removing us from harm, Settling us in Safety, Giving Sanctuary to the forsaken, abandoned, discarded.  in throw away society, even humans become disposable, ditching children and spouses, running away from responsibility is rampant.  i should put out a wanted ad for heywood, wanted by child support enforcement agency for non-payment of child support and alimony since february 2014, wanted by security exchange commission for 20 million dollar fraud, wanted by the fbi for criminal fraud, now fugitive overseas, escaping obligation, accountability, legal responsibility, Answer Of Truth.

heywood is merely copying the big guys doing the same.  monsanto is changing its name, escaping to europe to evade tax and legal encumbrance in this country.  we witness their desperate attempts at masquerade, laughable, shameful, weak.  if there is any pride in anything committed, they should stand firm to face the consequences but they all run!  thus it is disgrace, ignoble, infamous, debased.  falsehood has no true foundation but lives in vileness.  Who could know Reality, Heart Of Truth except ABa, Seeing Beginning to End, Result of all decisions made, actions effected, devotion of heart, worship, dedication.

i feel grateful ABa Uplifts in Ceaseless Mercy for those fatherless, widowed, orphaned from abandonment.  there is no one Good except for ABa ShaMaYM YaHWaH LIFE GIVER, Abiding Faithfulness, Committed Support when everything human fail us.  ABa’s Affection In Cherishing Assurance Encircle In Unrestrained LOVE, Enduring Comfort Of Assurance, Complete Settlement In Balance Of LIFE.  i feel grateful Given Sanctuary In Peace Surpassing all imagination, ABa Restore in Fortification Of LIFE, Console in Reassuring Support, Carrying children in Strength Of Encouragement all the Way.

prayer 6.23.15

Preparation is what a Parent does for children on sojourn, making sure they have everything they need on the Way.  Related, Intimate, Bound Up In Unrestrained LOVE With LIFE GIVER, we are Cherished In Approval, Assured Constant, Comforted In Goodwill Of Benefit, Given Advantage over all things.  like the prodigal, we have been Covered In Abounding Provisions but led astray to squander our wealth in wastefulness, dissipation, corruption.  ABa Never abandons, Abiding Constant With children lost, Recovering the very last one in Ceaseless Mercy, Tender Regard, Gentle Humility.

Shouldering our fault, Carry to Undertake In Complete Acceptance our blemish, failures, shortcoming.  Shepherd Of Truth Sustain despite our culpable liability, Preserving the offensive, Reconcile errors of transgression, Restore Union with wrong doers in Strength Matchless, Perfecting our violations of indiscretion, Calming fears of doubt In Certain Assurance, Bestowing Approval on the imperfect, lawless, guilty ones.  Ceaseless In Mercy, Magnanimous In Blessing, Yielding Forgiveness without delay in Selfless Consideration.  we are Regarded In Heart Of Truth as Priceless, that is how ABa Sees each one, as I AM Selfless ONE.

we are the prideful, disgraced, faithless while ABa Remains Faithful In Devotion, Honorable In Truth, Simple In Modesty, Real.  we are empty so we must pretend, weak so we put on clunky armor that does nothing for True Protection, depraved so we must resort to hypocrisy, untrue thus succumbing to falsehood, fraud, deception.  ABa does not deal as we deal.  Fearless In Unrestrained LOVE Accepting all without reservation, Unconditional, Wholehearted, Complete, Absolute, Unequivocal, without question Undiluted, Consummate, Pure, Veritable, Genuinely Authentic.

we may know ABa’s Reality Shining Forth Reaching every soul, Spirit Of LIFE GIVER Communicates With every one Direct, Faithfully, Openly.  to hear is our choice, many choose not to because of selfish generated fear, misunderstanding, obscuration.  when Truth Is Known, they will see that ABa’s Voice is the very yearning of every heart, it is the Voice Of Origin Calling each of us, Reconciling In Restoration, Refreshing Assurance, Faithful Confidence, Satisfaction In Guaranteed Trust.  to bank with ABa is our Only True Safety, Security, Benefit, Comfort.  what else could we trust except in Reality, Truth AS IS?

True Treasure Of Value, Cherishing Worth, Appreciation Of Significance Is ABa’s Recognition.  Peace Surpassing all comprehension, Dependable Sanctuary, Truth Secure In Reliable Meaningful Validity, Character Of Integrity, Rightful Resolve, Complete Settlement, Permanent Nature Of Goodwill In LIFE.  Changeless, Immutable, Constant Eternal Truth AS IS, ABa ShaMaYM YaHWaH Uphold In Steadfast Endurance, Balancing our difference, Compensating for our lack, Vindicating our defects, Clearing blame to Fulfill Honor According Word Genuine, Certain Principle.

Perfect In Giving, Blessing Of Union Support In Confirmation Of LIFE, Encircle In Approval Complete, Acceptance Of Recognition Bestowed on each child engendered in creation named in Appreciation.  Responsive Graciousness Identify each one as belonging to GIVER Of LIFE.  any other definition may be false but this ONE Is Real and will always belong to us, children of LIFE GIVER.  no matter our deviation, ABa Receives In Complete Cherishing Acceptance, Embrace In Warm Welcome every child of LIFE, Source Of Being, Fountain Of Existence, I AM AS IS AMeN.

prayer 6.11.15

ABa YDH For Preservation, Restoring Strength, Conveyance In Safety Returning me home to forest, Given Rest from long day of journeying in work.  i feel Refreshed, Blessed with meaningful work, LIFE Of Substance, Relevance Supported In ABa’s Goodwill, Settlement, Encircled In Peace Pervading, Exceeding all expectations, human conceptions, imagination.

Alive with Inquiry, Interest, Curiosity, Inner Smile Spirited, Kindled in Resemblance Shining In Magnanimity, Benevolent Charity, Selfless Mercy, Unrestrained LOVE, Complete Acceptance, Enjoying Graciously everything AS IS.  this journey allowed me to see Growth ABa Has Established In Constant Gentle Attentive Cultivation In Daily Abidance, Provision, Tender Care.  i am becoming more like LIFE, attuned to Reality, Settled With ABa ShaMaYM In Union.  LIFE Is Lived In Will Of AS IS.

i feel grateful for this Way Of Living, Connected, Related, Linked to LIFE GIVER, Source Of Existence.  i feel ABa’s Peace in this Way Of Being.  i feel grateful for this choice, Gathered In ABa, Belonging to LIFE GIVER Complete.  it is a LIFE Knowing Full, Real, Absolute Acceptance, Cherishing Approval, Wrapped Up In Comfort Of Assurance Constant.  it is also good to see few old friends along the journey, to witness ABa’s Balance, Accomplishment, Answer Unabridged, Lived out in each of our lives.  ABa’s Genuine Authenticity Is Absolute, Consummate, Unreserved, Categorical.

i feel grateful for ABa’s Clear Resolution, Warm Welcome, Reception Reconciling to Embrace all LIFE AS IS, Showered in Approval, Favor, Kindness, Benevolence, Selfless Support, Attentive Service.  Courteous Advocate Abide Ceaselessly, Benefiting everything in creation, no matter our choice, for or against LIFE AS IS.  i feel Softness Of LIFE In ABa’s Radiating Warmth, Gentleness, Sincere Joy, Welcome Of Good Will, Approbation.  LIFE Is Given to all without reservation, Supporting everything.

prayer 2.8.15

AB SMYM i feel so grateful for Your Plan, Will, Way, Resolving To Settle issues sticking out like sore thumbs, warranting attention to put things Right so that these no longer plague.  Giving Rest, Assurance, In All Provisions, enabling witness of Mercy, Salvation, Deliverance In Trust, no matter the outcome.  whether it be well or not, we choose to Praise AB SMYM, because after all, our definition is only a matter of perspective.

today, i have opportunity to meet one of these head on, face to face, to see AB’s Deliverance, Solution, Reconciliation.  things of the past, set aside from lack of space and time to deal with them.  things placed in storage after divorce, like a void in memory that holds remnants, old collection, belongings, records.  in a sense it is remnant of heywood’s heart for us, a dark dusty corner perhaps, given to forgetfulness, neglect, inattention, but nonetheless there, present, we the untouchables.

recent beholding of AB’s Demonstration In Provision, Clearing cobwebs of past to Establish Free And Clear Occupation, Soothing disturbance of doubt to Give Rest, Peace, in Arrangement Of Good for us.  quelling anxiety of uncertainty, Given Confirmation In Assurance.  i feel so grateful AB Also Gives Opportunity For Sharing Joy In Verification.  thankful AB Picked us Up when we were abandoned, betrayed, forsaken, shattered.  Taking us In As Family when no one desired us, Cherishing To Preserve, Defend, Provide when we were thrown out, crushed, dropped, disconnected from all support.

YDH AB For Salvation from wretchedness, discarded like a useless disposable ruined thing, repudiated on all sides, side stepped by relations, eschewed by friends, for we have become a plague, blight, disgrace, left to beg in humiliation, desperation, indignity.  dishonored, mortified, kicked in the teeth, yet AB Cherished us in our ignominy.  Calling us by Name, gathered into AB’s Household to Belong To Approval, Faithful Steadfast Devotion.  i feel grateful to be AB’s treasure, Kept Safe from harm, Nurtured In Unrestrained LOVE, Supported In Constant Cultivation, Covered In Peace Surpassing all understanding.

i do not know too many who pass through life without some dark period in their lives.  these render us stronger in AB’s Strength, Steeling Trust Fortified by trial, Reinforced In Faithful Support, Upheld In Assurance Guarantee, Word Of LIFE, Truth AS IS.  AB Has Proven In Substance Salvation In Certainty, Honest Facility, Provision, Establishment, Valid Authority.  YDH AB For Remembering us Constantly, Setting Great Store, Tending To our every need, Harbor Of Safety, Sound Protection from harm, Sanctuary Of Peace, Restoration In Healing Complete AMN.