prayer 6.20.15

early morning awaken in balm enfolding forest, radiant waves sparkle on ceiling, reflection cast by sunshine.  we are surrounded by cicada song amid bamboo melody chiming in gentle breeze.  our land dotted by myriad yellow flowers visited by bees, red cardinal balancing on bough of shimmering leaves, thrush singing magnificent song.  banana fronds fluttering welcome for residents of forest, its leaves dancing with Breath Of LIFE.  i feel grateful to Rest At HOME With ABa, Immersed In SaBaT SaLaM, Nourished In Abundant Provision Of LIFE GIVER.

digging out gear tucked away since arriving on the island with no popular climbing, the kids have outgrown their tiny climb shoes and child size harnesses.  our climb will be the house, sustained on belay, thus requirement for shoes is redundant.  it will be an interesting climb, avoiding vulnerable spots, windows, fixtures, satellite, pipes, make for delicate, thoughtful approach.  giving access to all walls, beams to the top, for necessary repairs, painting, cleaning, etc., adding fun, cool factor for endeavors.

our family embraced climbing while living in arcadia, with indoor climb gym down the road from foothills where we reside.  on most days after taking kids to school, i hike up toward chantry flats above cloud line, collecting herbs.  after school we climb in the gym, with longer breaks we venture further to climb outdoors, on beach rocks, mountain fastness, wilderness crags.  the kids were less than half their current size, they climbed in groups with children of varying ages.  we are there to encourage, support, document their progression.  through years of climbing, we absorb the culture, thus a return to climb is easy, facilitated by past memories.

golden rope nest in rope bag tarp, clean, shining, ready to belay.  60m is more than we need for our ascent, thickness surpassing our requirement, main purpose of which is for support, safety, hedge of protection in case of fall from a hold.  otherwise, the walls with holds attached will not be too difficult to navigate.  differential spacing, marked routes can be made for more challenge, requiring jumps craning in awkward angles.  it is a creative process allowing constant revision, adaptation, accommodation.  i feel grateful for this opportunity to finish painting house wrapped in all this fun!  when jacob arrives, he can help us complete this project, also visit with his cats moony and misty.

prayer 2.6.15

feeling tired, overwhelmed in rainless heat, i feel grateful we are not scheduled, having respite, relenting from involvement in sequenced organized activity to flow more with life, living each day as it comes.  evaluating needs, seeing if we may accommodate to meet them as they arise.  maybe that at times, there can be no meeting.  

the animals know to lie in the early morning sun to meet need for sunshine.  i have yet to see them fret about in busy-ness.  once a while there are skirmishes, but essentially, they seem relaxed, carefree, allowing life to pass and flow.  i too am learning to be more like them in being.  the trained go getter of material things is no longer.  i desire meaningful occupation, involvement, participation, contribution.

this morning while grooming was thought of approaching counsel with proposal to have everyone employed on this island in meaningful way.  immediate is Answer that we are well past time, opportunity, period, age for such implementation.  perhaps in kamehameha’s lifetime, when elements were simpler, without distraction, but no longer.  there are many great ideas that will work, however, execution and enactment would be impossible to achieve.  good intentions, unattainable effectuation.

similar to volk’s report of california prison system refusing to apply successful maranatha model.  i see the impracticability of island wide meaningful employment in usefulness.  could be in utopia, but days of arcadia is past, we are near end, finish, conclusion, completion on earth.  when the next chapter opens, it will be Rule Of Most High again, this time, for Eternity.  all our ways have proven futile, matching consistently in agreement with Word Of AB.

when we realize our true condition honestly, we shall but settle, resolve voluntarily in accord with AS IS, no longer resist, contest, controvert What IS.  only our pridefulness stands to refuses Reality AS IS.  we are still seeking our own way, solution, settlement, answer.  how many more thousand years must we continue to attempt useless means, in vain, before we shall acknowledge and recognize to accept Truth AS IS?

it is wiser to Rest, desist from self effort in Salvation, and allow AB Who Is Able To Complete us In Faithfulness.  such SaBaT Is Blessedness.  we have been self righteous long enough to see it does not work.  AB Has Been Long Suffering to allow such cunning display of ineffective, fruitless, unsuccessful, impotent trials, undertaking, effort.  it is not up to us, that is over the moment we chose to divorce from LIFE Source, separating from TRUTH.  ever since has been only empty, pointless, barren, abortive enterprise, labor, results.

i feel the animals have more sense than stubborn humanity in terms of relationship with Reality.  they seem more honest, genuine, authentic because they lack pride, ego, vanity.  they seem closer in approximation to Humility.  we are removed from Modesty in self-love, self-adulation, self-righteousness, self-importance, when it is not about us at all!  false conception must lead only to false end, culminating in wrongfulness.  what else could such dealings possibly engender than our current condition, produced by our own choices collectively?

we are still in denial of TRUTH, even more so desperately, insanely, wretched, hopeless, frantic, violent, reckless, impetuous in contradiction, abandonment, eschewal, rampant, blatant, flagrant, naked, unconcealed in Face Of AB.  the madness is in us, not in Truth.  we are the ones in need of Restoration, Reconciliation, Healing, Salvation, whether we realize nor admit it or not, it is our True condition, need, requirement.  this we deprive ourselves in pride, of Free Gift, Offered from Beginning to End Openly By AB SMYM to all.

destitute of Righteousness, in poverty for Justice, indigent in Mercy, we but exterminate each other in destruction, violence, hatred because we are blind to Truth, deaf to Cause, dumb to Knowledge Of Good, disconnected from LIFE, sinking in death, decay, surrounded by blight, harm, ruination.  we are indeed foolish because we are unsound, disorderly, fatuous in our craze for nothingness, naught, trifle.  the Significant we ignore, Consequential we reject, how sick indeed we are to deny Truth to accept lies in place of Reality, so that we may continue to live out our insanity!

Salvation Is Always Near, if we will but accept AS IS, to know Blessedness, Peace, Rest, Truth, LOVE.  AB Is Open Wide To Receive all In Approval, Forgiveness, Gracious, Merciful, Unrestrained In LOVE, without ceasing, Continually, Eternally.  what is our choice?  our personal choice, regardless of the collective, it has to come down to singular individual personal choice.  AB Saves, one at a time, because it is personal Salvation that is Meaningful to us, Significant and Consequential to us.  it has to be that Intimate, Relevant, Personal, Experiential, Particular, Distinct, Direct, Immediate, for us to know TRUTH AS IS.