Being With My Chiron Return Pilgrimage Theme

It is in and thru imperfection that we work out perfection in complete and utter acceptance, letting go to release wanting, wishing, desiring, expectations. Surrendering desire, dissolving thoughts thinking we want and need things, people, experiences, etc., to come to acceptance, which is unconditioned loving of life as is in all its beauty without filters.

Mine had to do with how I am loved, a certain way of wanting to be loved. Hardness came when my insistence of wanting things a certain way instead of surrendering, flowing, being with what is reality and truth as is. Denial is hard because we can never have what we want and desire from mind fabrications that is not real and in front of us living, breathing, flowing, as is, showing us truth blatantly.

Life has a funny way of teaching this lesson of complete utter acceptance or love of what is real, presence, the now. It puts things and people in our path to show us our incongruence, to help us see how our wanting doesn’t work and how it causes harm to ourselves and others.

Grace helps us to see that it can never work. Mercy transforms us to be with truth as is, to accept and love it all, to change our hearts and minds for acceptance of what is, so we may harmonize with life, with what is.

To deny wisdom is death. Wisdom is the conscience that speaks to our souls, hearts, minds, to help us flow with life, to master lessons of our soul. It opens doors to the fulfillment of our vision connected to soulful awareness. It helps us fulfill our truest life purpose.

I have a vision of going on a pilgrimage when I turn 50 this year, to see how life will honor and show up for me. I am contemplating and being with the theme of equality and how it is expressed in each of us, how we allow this voice to speak in and thru us, how we choose to live this ageless wisdom, soul to soul.

I am inspired by Satish Kumar’s pilgrimage, and I have chosen to follow his example, to listen to the voices ancient, to go on this pilgrimage without money, to trust life to provide from its infinite boundless amazing stores.

As this vision quest is coalescing into reality, for me to live and embody the eternal theme of equality, I am being with all my demons, my wanting, desiring for things of the mind, fabrications that can never be because it isn’t truth or reality.

Only I can face these monsters because I created them. When I choose to face them they can be known and dissolved, I can be clear to flow and align with life as is. I can be freed from the nets and snags I created, when I realize I create my thoughts and conditioning, that I can change or dismantle them. 

I can choose to simply be with reality and flow, or I can remain stagnant bound by my own creations, interpretations, meaning I give to things, my perceptions of how things are for me. I realize I can trust nothing that is projected. I can only trust that still awareness that is unbiased, speaking in all of us.

This still true voice, wisdom, conscience, consciousness, intelligence, guides to lead us to safety, to give us rest, to help us know peace, harmony, balance, equality. It is impartial, neutral.

I am learning neutrality, to withhold judgment of the mind, to suspend interpretation of making something mean anything, to simply be with, see, experience, know, sense things in their truth and reality. I am learning not to supplant authentic truth, reality of life as is flowing, coursing, streaming. 

It is about being with, standing with, sitting with what simply is without needing to change any of it, to fully completely accept it in its fullest truth. In full acceptance is unconditioned love, open warm reception of what is. I realize it is a choice I make moment to moment. It is a choice we all make together. It entails freeness in this choosing that is granted to each of us by life that sustains all things. It is completely unconditional in accepting whatever choice we make, even when it is against ourselves, against life, for death.

So, it is up to us, all of us, to do this together. It is our choice, in how we work together or not. This is our way to equality individually and collectively. It is truly our responsibility and our choice because life is all for us to choose what happens to ourselves, to each other, to the world. We have a choice, many choices to make alone and together. This is the theme of my pilgrimage, to choose equality, to embrace life as is, to remain neutral within myself, to support whatever is, to consciously choose reality.

prayer 8.12.15.4

i have come to completely accept everything AS IS, weather swiftly changing being one aspect of this acceptance.  during hurricane season on our island are quickened swings from sun to clouds to rains as bands of weather pass through in waves.  i used to detest such changes but now i see they are part of the whole as we are.  to resist is truly futile because it is not something we may change, only perhaps on global scale collectively as we live with higher temperatures wreaking havoc.  even the rich and powerful can have no effect because there are so many others they need to include for Success Holistically.  to imagine that we may succeed without the Whole is nonsensical insanity.  we succeed or fail as a Whole, i pray it will be in Cooperation, toward Peaceful Settlement AMeN.

prayer 8.10.15

YaDaH ABa For LIFE Surrounded In Unrestrained Mercy, Unconditional Acceptance, Welcome Reception, Healing humanity gone out of control, sick, dying.  rampant covetous greed corrupts, oppresses, stealing from every one, of the robbers themselves, of heart integrity.  blacker than dark hole, insatiable appetite cause harm on massive scale.  governments encourage deadly consumption to maintain systems unsustainable, unreasonable, illogical.  true cost obscured while playing up deception to trade valueless goods produced with peoples’ blood, sweat, tears, causing global devastation.  media is hypnotizes a public asleep, pandering propaganda.  true impactful stories rarely get air, suffocated in death grip of phobic consternation.  there is not a Safe place for true, honest, public debate of central issues that need proper immediate attention.  i feel grateful Restoration Is Near, Rest, Healing Imminent.  it is Enough!  it has to End.  Will Of LIFE BE DONE, Finish Complete AMeN.

prayer 7.8.15

tired but feeling grateful in ABa’s Provisions, Constant Abiding Presence Comfort In Assurance, Cherishing Approval AMeN.  it is nice to get in ocean during warm day, meeting uncle mark, lifeguard at beach, reconnecting, sharing happenings, touching base gave opportunity to spend time together.  dipping in clear ocean water visited by huge sea turtles, gigantic puffer fish, tropical fishes along shore line, i feel encouraged, knowing how Gentle LIFE IS in every thing.  only humans are violent, deviating from Original Design, Purpose, Law Of Being.

we watched vegucated together in evening, confirming so many things about animal meat production, opening eyes to cruelty toward companions created for Enjoyment, Benefit, Sharing Blessing.  i did not know until last week about male chicks being shredded in egg production industry.  chicks, hens, going through funnels and conveyor belts, crammed into industrial coops, mutilated, fed adulterated feed, treated unconscienably.  there were parts of movie that tore at our hearts when we realized Truth of what is happening.  the animals know abuse, suffer it constantly in these conditions, facts hidden from public because if it is known, no one will wish it, perhaps maybe only the most hardened.

three meat lovers were converted to become plant based in their choices, now conscious of Truth.  i feel grateful there is Hope.  perhaps we will also open our land to provide sanctuary for animals rescued from slaughter houses.  especially living in tropical forest where everything grows, we have no desire nor need to kill animals to consume them.  vegetables and plants to us tastes so much more superior, the body, mind, spirit also assimilate plant foods Better.  we are designed by LIFE GIVER as vegans, with no need to kill LIFE to live.  plants offer everything we need from food to shelter to warmth.  where it is warm, even this need is taken care of without need to burn anything.

i have no words after viewing this movie, only contemplative of how we will share this Message Of Truth with others, so that they also will know, be informed to choose Rightfully.  today, we will show jacob how to make yummy nourishing salads and foods he can continue at home when he leaves.  he is converting to enjoy our lifestyle of non-violence, causing no harm to environment, people, animals.  Simplicity Revitalizes Essential Requisite, ABa Illuminate to Show Forth Truth in Gentleness, never forceful, Constant Attentive Regard Shelter us Uplifted In Support Of LIFE.  i feel grateful for Communication Informing Of Truth, Inspiration Immersed In Real Facts.

with Complete Revelation Of Truth, we may then properly decide, ABa Making Room for all in Liberation, Freedom Of Decision Sustained In Goodwill, beyond anything human.  our Connection is with LIFE, not death, destruction, decay.  In Union Sustained In Faithfulness Eternal, Assurance Is Guaranteed, Comfort Of Cherishing Is Near.  Knowledge Of Certainty, Trust Complete Verified In ABa’s Devotion, Constancy, Unrestrained LOVE Meet us Continually Ceaselessly.  i feel grateful for ABa’s Embrace Holding every thing in Warm Welcome Reception, Acceptance Encompassing every one created, generated, birthed, accorded with LIFE.